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Saturday, July 12th, 2008
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Wednesday, December 12th, 2007
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Sunday, June 12th, 2005
10:29 am	TrueFucking Love asked by Stephanie on Jun 11 2005 12:07PM ive noticed that there is a little more kiss hers, hands between legs, laying in bed all day and notchs in bedposts on From Under The Cork Tree. has there been a change in your sex life betweeen albums? answered by peter on Jun 11 2005 1:33PM yes. i stopped being into fireworks and skateboarding and got into making out. fireworks were way cooler. Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Motion City Soundtrack (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 17th, 2005
10:03 pm	for Caitlin Looking down at the chaos she created she was speechless. so taken back that what she had once only imagined had come true. it was to easy for her to get lost inside her notebook and never confront anything real that she would just keep writing unaware of what was going on around her she was like in time capsule you hide away(with every intention of one day opening it but forget all about it a week after hiding it)always staying the same but everything around it changing. she was the outcast that you don't even notice she wrote down everything in her notebook but when you read the words that were scribbled down you found nothing. her pen held revenge and her words were field with hatred. she was going to get back at everyone not that they had ever done anything to her but that was just it. she was going to take down everyone. she was everywhere you didn't want her to be and she wrote it down. words just dripped from her pen onto paper and slid from her eyes to her hand. everything was going to work out in her favor she had never been noticed so how could she be blamed for what she was going to do. still looking down at the mayhem, the screaming and crying put the first smile she had ever had on her face. and yet she still wrote she opened up her notebook looking down and let the words leek form her pen as they always did she was still not satisfied but she never could be nothing was ever as good as she wrote it to be nothing was ever as cut and dry as people played it out to be. she stopped abruptly well describing the red the covered the floor and looked down. her pen was out of ink and her notebook out of paper. she packed everything up and walked down threw the crowed room without flinching. she walked all the way to her house that was always flooded with people but always seemed empty. red foot prints were left on the white carpet and ended at her closed door. her cd player wet on and she climbed up on to the roof and opened up the notebook turned to the first page and read............... Current Mood: bored Current Music: matchbook romance (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, April 16th, 2005
9:28 pm	I hope You Choke nothings original so why even try when what you put out there is going to be eaten alive. it doesn't seem worth it to keep weighing the pros and cons. id rather keep wishing people into terrible situation because its easier then confronting them. jealousy is a beautiful thing baby. this is about holing on to these moments even if there grudges it might not be the best thing but I'm still holding on. moments like this will be remembered buy the revenge of this pen. your life's story is now on reality TV sit back and watch don't believe a single thing they say its all a script and were all getting sucked in.... see you fuckers latter Current Mood: content Current Music: Populace In Two~ From First To Last (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 14th, 2005
9:29 pm	I'm just being over dramatic deal with it...... just keep walking your sweet talk is over rated and your an all round fuck. hears to wearing make up that makes you look like a girl and hears to wearing girl pants tighter then mine. coming into my room pitch black and being scared out of my mind is not my idea of the perfect romance sorry to break your heart.you wear brutal honesty so well, cutting fakers and most of all cutting real life friends. this stuff doesn't come around once in a life time, its all over ebay for a dollar. i am that gasp of breath on your deathbead (stale and panicked) but you're still dying for me. I'm dying to not give up on this. so I guess all see you tomorrow. Current Mood: confused Current Music: Ashlee Simpson (Comment on this)
Monday, April 11th, 2005
8:40 am	shy to the point of seaming rude the same person day after day, never growing and never changing. it seems pointless but its a work in progress. I'm going to burn to death in my own fire. holding on to dreams that will never come true, continuously choking on mouth fulls of regret. let me in and I'll tear you apart I would tell you any lie to keep you here tonight. you shut off the light and I am a moth in the dark begging for more, but there's a part of me hoping you drop dead and all berry you in my regret. *I make plans to break plans, and I've been planning something big* continue laughing at funerals and crying at party's. keep fighting for the wrong cases if I give you the chance you'll play dumb, if you give me the microphone ill play tragic so if you take a shot, make it count. Way to awkward for words but still making awkward look cool. hate being critiqued but lover of the critics just want the attention so just get up and leave. nothing comes to mind so talk amongst your self's. if I would have know this is how things were going to turn OUT id be more then happy to be dead in hell right now. One more gasping breath (gun barrel between your teeth you can only) taking only in vowels. one last glimpse of you before I permanently black out. All unmask the pain and all cut out my eyes to keep form crying, all sew up my lips to keep from telling you anther lie like I love you. through me out with the rest of the trash because I'm perfect till you find something new. Current Mood: apathetic Current Music: The Academy Is....... (Comment on this)
Monday, April 4th, 2005
10:55 pm	Who dose that???even if it is cuite. I feel like I need to write that I'm bursting with things to say, but the truth is there's just to much. I want to come clean of all my lies and all the pain. nothing could touch what's going on but go ahead and try. it will just be a waist of time. not my best work I can say that right now. I'm sorry for falling asleep and waking up when you had to leave. stop stilling what's mine little by little your getting to actually know me and I know your going to find that there's nothing there. don't mention things that are unreal no matter how much you hear them out loud they will never come true. first class failure right hear, don't bother to take a picture all be here forever. that smile is breaking me down and your visits seem to be getting longer if "It's Not A Side Effect Of The Cocaine, I Am Thinking It Must Be Love." Current Mood: relaxed Current Music: My Chemical Romance (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
11:13 pm	wouldn't let go of things she never had i guess im not a sociopath Savanna Norris~1990-2005 lived way to much for the moment that would never come. she was so heavy with self doubt that her skin felt raw. she was intensely unconscious that her eyes were there the window to her soul. so scared of getting close and getting crushed that she would always get out before she was discovered. she constantly said sorry for things she didn't mean. she would have killed to be killed but continued to smile through her tears crating a false hope. she was walking aimlessly with a appetites for self destruction. music was the only thing that she could ever she say she loved, it was her everything it saved her pathetic life night after night. she wanted to grow, she wanted to live, she wanted to do something worth wile. she wanted to write something you didn't forget the second you read it. but everything she did, wrote, and said was crap just like this. Current Mood: relieved Current Music: Fall out boy (5 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 22nd, 2005
11:22 am	things that mean other things always don't mean a damn thing in the scheme of things thanks for clearing things up and trying to make them right with your excuses. you know I could never come close to hating you no matter how many times it slips from my mouth. when I say that its me trying to keep you down so you don't realize how great you are. me deepest secret is one that you know because its yours to. its undeniable how much you get me without even having to talk to me you gotta know you have my heart. your words run through my vain's and back into my heart. you know you've owned me since the first time our eyes meet and yet all never come close to having yours your just always gone and never around your being your own person with everyone else. i look at your picture everyday and your eyes always stare back in the most un comforting way. I want to tell you everything but then id be left with nothing your so far beyond me and im so far behind you only wanting to catch up. i live and breath for your news its utterly pathetic how much my emotions are dependant on you. if you only knew this woudl be os much more pathetic. iv sunken ito this depression waiting for you. desperation isn't a strong enough word but it will have to do. drama sucks but it always seems to surround you and then i get pulled in and i have a shity day to. why cant i just leave you and only come around for the next show our relationship is really nothing your always willing to say what i want to hear and I'm always dying to be you or with you. so i must confess i know what i got yourself into and there's a black cloud over our heads to keep us from winning. its a lost cause to put it nicely I wrote the word "regret" on my hand to remember to call you. so this is my last chance to see if I can catch your eye maybe all even call this a love song in its own fucked up way lets walk this romance until its bitter end if there was ever a romance to start. I never really have to mean anything to anyone. i have intimacy problems with the world and you I cant believe i let my self get attached as you move farther away. but I cant help that things get so much worse when your not around. I have so much to say that I never will and it will continue to haunt me in my dreams and lurk around my room at night.the things you writes hurt too much to be real yet there's no greater weapon then your name.for the record I feel like I am holding my breath all the time. A nervous stuttering wreck, and then you don't like me anyway. so one day all give up and stop calling, stop playing your CD in my car, stop looking at your picture and stop writhing entry's about you but that day might never come because you always say the right thing to keep me coming back once I'm ready to move on so all stay in your shadow forever and then when I die it will be nice to know that thats all I had to do to get some attention from you. your the king of heart killers and I'm the queen of broken hearts. Current Mood: crushed Current Music: Finch (Comment on this)
Monday, March 21st, 2005
9:46 pm	and sometimes all the lit houses i walk by, im just dying to be inside i couldn't come up with anything to say so all uses what he wrote "all in all. this is the best time of our lives- all thanks only to you. words couldn't explain. thank you so much.. peterpan basement days attic nights its not so much that theres something wrong with me as there is nothing right got some books on the floor they’re holding up my standards swore myself off of you but I don’t do too well with ultimatums" Current Mood: bored Current Music: fall out boy (Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 9th, 2005
9:09 pm	I didn't care that you left and abandoned me, what hurts more is i would still die for you. what do you say when no words could come close to touching the mess that has formed around you one wourd comes to mind FUCK. i hate the possition that im in and i hate how i never seem to win no mater how hard i try to not cross the thin line. the pain is soethinmes worth it to get your anger out. jsut leve me in my room to die you know you want to the grounds were on are shaky any love we had is lost and secrets weve sharded forgget them becuse i know they wont be secrets for long. the code word is school so i thought i woudl tell you becuse you diserve to know. even tho i cumpletleyy hate you i woudl be so lost without you. i have notheing letft to say so all leve you with the feeling i have right now. "the headphoens will diliver you the words that i cant say" so im not fucking mexican i dont know how many more times all be abel to say it the next time my anger is gogint to get the best of me nad i wont be abel to jsut walk away well you laugh if off like it was nothing. "only liers are the weakest there only good for the latest trends" the cut cuvers up the lyrics i wrote on my wrist. i think it will only get worse from here. the only thing that is holding me over is the countdown. i fell like i will always be alone. am not as emothinless as they think i am i just lock myself in a room and cut the emothins out of my body becuse i woudl fall apart if i didnt. "im sick of always writing songs for you to slit your wrist to" i cant find the write words to say to you. maby its the fact the words weve spok to eachother are minimal but i think i might just love you. i hate geting like this but i cant help myself. i hope that when i fall it will be over soon. just dont let me foget that i will always say i hate you. i dont want to dream anymore if its not me and you "the best ones are crazy.its such a shame for us to part..." Current Mood: guilty Current Music: fall out boy (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 8th, 2005
10:19 pm	fuck tuseday nights (im not going to spell check for you mother fuckers) so lets see tennis is a wist of time its fun and all but its so fucking boring if your bad at it and boy am i. only lets see only 25 days to my next orthadontist apointment but more fucking importantly onlt 26 more days fill drum roll the FALL OUT BOY CONCERT. i learned what scoleosis was today and wanted to know if a fish coudl have scoleosos and im probobly spelling that tolttly wrong but fuck lets jsut hope you know what im tlking about. mindy ahve the gracefulness or a frog and i on the other hand need to work on my landings. " o yea sure r u goign with a group of people and need a designated driver?" sorry i didnt go to armor for sleep i fuck i really wanted to go i mean there not my favorit band or anyhting but i do love them and there new cd woudl be great to see them play live. " Korxxxxxx10 [10:20 P.M.]: yeha i'm afraid to see !!!! i'm suck a stupid shy people god i hate myself! Korxxxxxx10 [10:24 P.M.]: at least u can breathe and talk with **** i can;'t do that with !!!! i just studder and stare at him Billysriotgurl13 [10:24 P.M.]: lol so how do you have conversations with him in the hall Billysriotgurl13 [10:25 P.M.]: but see my problem is i have no fucking impoulse cuntrol so im scared i might jsut jumpo him one day lol Billysriotgurl13 [10:25 P.M.]: or wores and im thinking it might be worse Korxxxxxx10 [10:25 P.M.]: i'm really not sure i have to think up some shit to make myself sound better Billysriotgurl13 [10:25 P.M.]: lol Billysriotgurl13 [10:25 P.M.]: ok Korxxxxxx10 [10:25 P.M.]: well i would rather have that then not be able to breathe everytime he comes around Billysriotgurl13 [10:26 P.M.]: lol well maby i can give you a little of what i ahve (cuz i ahve no idea how else to put that) and you could give me what you have and then we could tottly be perfictly in balence" so i was thinknig whats agood birthday present for a guy???????:??????????????????? also what woudl happen if you were to get your foot stuck in the tolet wourl the tolet overfloow with your foot in it???????????????????????????????????????????????\ omg i so almost forgot to say that savannaka ended on sunday an it was one of the best birthdays of my life but some people fucked up and forgot the mkdsssss lol well ahve to fix that for next time or maby all jsut ahve to ahve another party ok so im done all propbly gop watch donnie darko but what else is new or maby all watch the fall out boy dvd i jsut dont know lol anyways............................. "people say dont wait dont be scared but what about the people who dont go anywhere????" Current Mood: devious Current Music: fall out boy (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, March 7th, 2005
8:38 am	DONNIE "A storm is coming, Frank says. A storm that will swallow the children... and I will deliver them from the kingdom of pain." (beat) "I will deliver the children to their doorsteps. I will send the monsters back to the underground. I will send them back to a place where no one can see them ...except for me. Because I am Donnie Darko." Donnie returns to his seat. Ms. Pomeroy stares at him intensely. MS. POMEROY Who is Frank? DONNIE A six-foot-tall bunny rabbit. Donnie Darko is only the best movie iv ever watched iv watched it almost everyday of my life i love the scene above its just great along with this one............ DR. THURMAN How does that make you feel? DONNIE It reminded me of my dog Callie. DR. THURMAN Is Callie still around? DONNIE No. She died when I was eight. We couldn't find her for days. She went and crawled underneath our back porch... DR. THURMAN To die? DONNIE To be alone. DR. THURMAN Do you feel alone right now? He looks at her for a moment. DONNIE I'd like to believe that I'm not... but I've just never seen any proof. So I just choose not to bother with it. It's, like, I could spend my whole life thinking about it... debating it in my head. Weighing the pros and cons. And in the end, I still wouldn't have any proof. So ...I don't even debate it any more. Because it's absurd. (beat) I don't want to be alone. (beat) So, does that make me, like, an atheist? DR. THURMAN No. That makes you keep searching. Donnie takes this in for a moment. Current Mood: content Current Music: aromor for sleep (Comment on this)
Friday, March 4th, 2005
8:30 am	fuck christmika HAPPY SAVANNAKA Current Mood: sleepy Current Music: THE USED (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 3rd, 2005
10:21 pm	If Only you Fucking knew............................................................ I'm lost and have no clue what to do................................................ why does lying always get the best of me???????????????????????????????????????????? Current Mood: aggravated Current Music: armor for sleep (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 24th, 2005
10:55 pm	Open Bottles & Empty Rooms The Pill Bottle Is Open Laying On The Floor Your Laying On Your Bed Knowing You Need More The Music Is Saying Just Hold On Your Eyes Are Slowly Closing As Your Breaths Become Short Your Heart Skips Its First Beet Your Head Ache was Purged Onto The Floor Holding Back Your Screams SO No One Will Come Knocking On The Door The Music Is Saying Just Hold On Your Eyes Are Slowly Closing As Your Breaths Become Short Crawling Into Bed You Know Your On Your Way to Never land Holding On To The Few Good Memories You Had Falling Asleep Has Never Seemed So Hard But Now Its Finally Getting Dark The Music Is Saying Just Hold On Your Eyes Are Slowly Closing As Your Breaths Become Short You've Finally Escaped Your Hell Laying Lifeless On the Floor No One Will Bather You Any More The Music Said Just Hold On Your Eyes Still Closed And your Breathe Are No More There's Not Much to say but today I Was Trapped with my thoughts. As Hard As I Tried I Couldn't Get Away From Them. I Sent A Late Valentine That Said Every Living Thing Will Die Alone. I Want To Move Away I Even Got AN offer For place To Stay But The Only Problem Is NO Concerts Go There. But I was Thinking I could try It out I mean Anything Could Be Better Then Where I'm Stuck Right Now. I Also Thought About Drinking Down Some Chemical Under The Sink But Didn't because There Was The Lingering Question What If It Doesn't Work?? SO I'm Still Stuck Her Watching My Cuts Bleed. If You Want To go Down in History?......? Current Mood: crappy Current Music: The New Armor For Sleep CD (Comment on this)
Thursday, February 17th, 2005
8:40 pm	I'd tell you I'm sorry if you were willing to believe another lie I'm gonna go and try to not care about anyone or anything. maybe you should call me up sometime and I'll tell you I am fine. I am a good liar. you are not going to figure me out so don't try because you can't figure out someone who has no idea who they really are. in other new the fights keep getting worse and the phone calls are shorter and shorter. its wired how one minute you can be completely calm and cool and getting along with every one but when she opens her mouth everything changes she acts all self riches and the prime example of perfect but what id like to know if she's so perfect how did we end up so screwed up?? staring blankly into the tv set watching the OC it hit me that i was really depressed (may be because of the fights or maybe its because "iv OD on loneliness 24 times") and the thought jumped into my head to see blue turn to red that thought and me were once close friends and for a wile there i thought the friendship was done but now i know why we weer so close. When i answered the phone and herd there voice on the other end i covered up what i was feeling and through it to the wall just talking to them made it feel like everything was going to be ok that if they could make it out alive then so could i. Its amazing that with in the 10min on the phone with them i was able to forget all the tears it mad the fights i keep having seem unreal but then after the good byes and the all see you soons the dial tone remained and it snapped me back into the pathetic reality i wish i had more phone calls like that but they rare. Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: something corporate (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 16th, 2005
12:12 pm	PMS always makes bad thing worse i hate fighting with them cuz i always come to regret it latter but when I’m around them i cant help but yell and get mad and sometimes i think there just trying to push my buttons to see how far i will go be for i yell. sometimes though i just say things and they take it as a personal attack on them when i don’t mean for it to be but when they become defensive i snap and go off at them and its the start of world war 3 i fell like i just cant learn to bite my tong or learn to keep thing to my self. i hate it though because just as were start to become ok with each other again we spend more then 5min together and we back to hating each other. it sucks its jsut one big fight that’s never going to end. i know i shoudl take half the blame for what goes on but they seem to care for them more then for me. and this is just the beginning of my day cant wait till latter Current Mood: annoyed Current Music: Kanye West (Comment on this)